EVANGELINExiaomei!
SIX years since 030703! :)
so it's SIX years knowing you!
you have been always a listening ear to me,
giving me advices in every aspect,
be it my relationship,my studies,my life
giving me advices whenever i needed them,
whenever i need advices from a non-guy. hahas! :)
we have been through alot,
more than alot other friends have,
not to say,we have ups and downs like other friendships will face,
remebering that time,when i confessed to you and gt rejected,
heartbrokened i was,
but what came to my mind was that i killed the friendship in us,
how afraid i was that what i asked will ruin our friendship,our siblingship.
cassandramei was the one who urge me to put down everything,
and continue to talk to you like normal.
it really took me alot of courage,
because i didnt want to ruin the friendship&siblingship between us.
i was glad that i did continue talk to you like normal,
though really not like normally normal,but at least i tried to talk to you again luh!
and i was glad that you didnt leave me,as in didnt dont care about me or something aft the confession.
enough of the confession part la, haha!
i was to thank you for everything luh! :)
for the tolerance,and everything la!
& yes, i want you to stay happy okay?
dont so stress yourself okay! :)

istillloveyouishantdeny,
thefeelinghasbeenalwaysthere.
butyeah,iwillnotdoanythingthawillspoiltherlsnow.

school was usual,shan't elaborate on that part. :) but after school, after those lectures and tutorials were superb! :)

met EVANGELINExiaomei,CASSANDRAmei,JACQUELINEmei,ZAOIREA,BENJAMIN thn we started our "K-ing tour"(EVANGELINExiaomei named it the k-ing tour) haha! kbox,followed by kpool. lol! kbox was very nice! :) really enjoyed ourselves la! everytimg,we go kbox, we'll be SUPER HIGH! haha! screaming at the top of or voices! haha! everyone was SUPER HIGH! haha! than the waiter? jonaas went high too la! cos of dear EVANGELINExiaomei! haha! okay,it was very funny the way they two talked la, CASSANDRAmei started talking to him cos we're ordering our stuffs la, thn that guy started to look at my EVANGELINExiaomei, haha, it's very funny la. EVANGELINExiaomei didnt realise it la, but we did, that jonaas didnt realise that we know he looking at her also la,haha! thn this jonaas is like serving our room/cabin only la! haha! no matter it bringing in food of what,it's him. thn he keep coming in to ask us if we want water. haha! BEST service so far,of all th kboxes we went! haha! thn i think that jonaas knock off alreadys or something, thn came into our room/cabin and say goodbye. haha! i think it's ZAOIREA or JACQUELINEmei, one of them, haha! asked him if he want to join us for the next hour i think. haha! yeah la,he stayed. haha! he went to sit beside EVANGELINExiaomei la! haha! she just finish highing, haha! she's "resting" la! thn that jonaas started talking to my EVANGELINExiaomei, haha! so funny la! i dont know what they talked about la, but i know that jonaas is asking information of my xiaomei. =X haha! i think that jonaas asked xiaomei for her number la, haha! but xiaomei say she never give. haha! too fast already la! haha! went kpool after  kbox so you an see, a group of people ho dont like to play pool went to pool together, which will only result in messing up everything! haha!we spent about two hours kpooling.haha! EVANGELINExiaomei & CASSANDRA trashed BENJAMIN & I luh! haha! JACQUELINEmei & ZAOIREA was trashed by BENJAMIN & I ! haha! but wen really didnt like to play pool luh! haha! i dont know why though, people around this age should have pool as their second home, but not us. a group of people who DOESNT LIKE pool! :) thn EVANGELINExiaomei's daddy came luh. sent us home,except for JACQUELINEmei & ZAOIREA luh.that two lovely doveys. =x. haha! so it's from amk to somewhere near pasir-ris to boonkeng thn back to EVANGELINExiaomei place at anchorvale! haha! thanks uncle david :)

it has been a long time since we six went out luh! haha! all six of us. :) okay, previously there was JESTIVRE too luh! he's always busy la!haha! it's a great day for me, i enjoyed myself. & i hope you guys too :) the time we spend together, mustn't lessen but grow more & more okay? :)

EVANGELINExiaomei is of a good mood today, haha! back to her messaging self, at least, not so quiet, not so emo- la! :) i can see that you have cheered up,girl! :) dont be so stress hor! dont stress youself! :)

BENJAMIN asked if want go out together tomorrow anot. haha. EVANGELINExiaomei rejected us again! see how bad can this girl be la! haha! she say she'll not go out with anyone tomorrow, except if * were to ask her out for tomorrow today. see la! haha! thn i knew something aldy la! comfirn some special day or something one.haha!

p/s: * is her someone la!=X


 

i want to see you smile,
i want to see you laugh,
i want to see you be happy,
and that's all that i longed.
because a happy you,
makes a happy me :)

school was usual,nothing much happened.lectures,tutorials and stuffs.short day in school.

met EVANGELINExiaomei & CASSANDRAmei at cp to study luh,with BENJAMIN too of course. all studying different things. haha! EVANGELINExiaomei suggested it, cos i think she wanted to study at home today de, but her sister brought friends home thn very noisy. haha. yeah. xiaomei was doing her e-learning stuffs luh. after studying for awhile, the three of us got restless luh. slacked. haha! except EVANGELINExiaomei, she really continued studying and doing her e-learning stuff. first time see her not messaging luhs. asked her why not messaging, she say cos people never message her. maybe except *, we three were the ones who everything gt nothing better to do thn message to chat with EVANGELINExiaomei de luh.haha! JACQUELINEmei was busy today, so didnt come study with us. haha!
first time see EVANGELINExiaomei so stressed up la.can see that she's on the verge of breaking down already.xiaomei! dont stress yourself so much okay?promise me this :)  so she completed her stuffs i think, :)   we didnt really helped her with anything cos those things she's doing seems greek to us. different courses luh!  EVANGELINExiaomei asked someone about java luh. to clarify her ONE DOUBT. that guy was super irritating.=,-. sent his work to her immediately thn say "take it and dont ****** me please".it's like what-the-fuck luh! ignore if you want to, but dont be so fuck-. EVANGELINExiaomei accepted it, but DELETED IT OFF immediately after receiving it. she didnt even see the details inside. i can see that she was ... okay, nvms,! cheer up alright? :)  that guy is really a fucker. bastard fucker.(i have not been so vulgar for a long time, but that guy really is)  .....
 

asked EVANGELINExiaomei out luh,but was rejected! see how bad she can be now! haha! she was going out with her friend to complete some of the e-learning and projects luh. cant blame her, so rare that my EVANGELINExiaomei will so guai want do work wor! XD haha! she say she go watch transformers aldys luh! see la,EVANGELINE! like that lor! dont want watch with your korkor, but she said it was nice,and she didnt slp at all in the 2&half hour show, so it shouldn't be bad,haha! worth watching. :) i trust her taste.haha!

oh,anyway,went to school,thn came back to slack at home today. today was super slack i can say, just that my fingers were exercising,messaging with my dear EVANGELINExiaomei. :) she should be back from her ndp training anytime, hope that she arent lost on the way home, ask her if she wants me to sent her home, she rejected. she didn't want her boyfriend to be jealous or anything luh! is like her place is very quiet,and has many people who drinks at the coffee shop she'll walk past luh, cannot help it but being worried for her. text me when yo reach home okay. :)

thinking of you the whole day,
but not going to say out,
cos i dont want you to feel awkward,
when seeing me again,
i enjoying the way you're caring me now,
but is afraid that your boyfriend will say anything.

asked EVANGELINExiaomei & CASSANDRAmei out to sentosa, but gt rejected! :( xiaomei was the first one to respond la, but rejecting benj & me! :( we were both shocked, cos she seldom reject sentosa so readily. haha! thn suggested snowcity since xiaomei wanted to go badly, but she rejected me again.even if i say i would sponsor her. :(

so went out with benjamin only.haha! since my xiaomei&mei didnt want to follow. :( haha! nvmnvm! :) we went to town, bought alot of things. :) so having a twin isnt something bad! :)


you may not know,
but i do.
will not say it out,
cos i dont want anything to be awkward.

after many deep thoughts,i have decided to make it an end, difficult it may be, heartbroken i may be, but i think,everything will come to an end,sooner or later, so all this will happen, it's only the time.so i'll not drag anymore.

met EVANGELINExiaomei at night,after her ndp training :) passed her food and sent her home,cos it was pretty late (she was shocked to see the food.haha!) she never fail to cheer me up, :) always being there when i needed her :) went home after that,still messaging her though, still pouring to her,cos it's a decision made. :) proud of myself making this decision, cos i know,if this decision isnt made, i'll regret later, :)

you may not know,
but i think the feeling before is still there,
but i'm glad,
that i still have you,
as a friend :)

found out something that tremendously killed my mood yesterday. how do you expect me to trust you ever again.i trusted you the other time,giving you another chance,but what you did was did that again,how nice can you be?

benjamin called EVANGELINExiaomei. :) she came down,though she was studying her java. she came down to check if i'm alright.listening to my pourings,giving me answers to my many questions,childish to some it may seem,but she really did answered all,with alot of patience. she's one good listener. :) always being there when i need her.thanks my dear. :)

to forgive or not to forgive,i'm thinking deeply. i know i still loves you,deeply.i may not be the best guy in this world,but i definately know that i love you alot.